I feel like I haven’t stopped crying in months.
Like sometimes I can push the tears to the back of my mind so you can’t see them but they’re still there.
But a lot of the time, I can’t do that. I can’t even control it in school. I literally bawl my eyes out in class. And I try to stifle it and it just makes it worse. And everyone asks if I’m okay when they know I’m not. And they ask what’s wrong and I don’t really know what the answer is.
I don’t know how to be happy. I try so hard but the smiles and laughter are so fake.
I just want to know how happy feels. I want to know how it feels to be okay.
i’ve never understood why ‘manslaughter’ is the name for a lesser charge than murder.
manslaughter sounds like you fuckin chopped someone into pieces with a rusty axe and fed them to your dog.